As i’m listening to ‘In Rainbows’ by Radiohead i feel it’s time to do something productive, to make myself feel just THAT bit better about being alive. Of course if i put music to another of my many books of lyric scribblings ( i can’t name them masterpieces of poetry at all) i’ll just feel inadequate. But it’s alright really, i’ll soon take over the world with my animation awesomeness. WAIT.

It’s interesting. I love this album, i’m currently listening to Videotape which concludes one side of the album with simple chord phrases that get drowned by weird ghost noises and accompanied drum machine (i can’t see how it’s done on drums unless just obsessively sampled). My other fave song on the album is Reckoner because it makes me fall asleep. Also if you don’t have the full album you’re an idiot because Bangers and Mash is one of the best song names in the forest. 

I would actually love to be Bjork or Kate Bush. I know i’ve said this about 5 billion times but you should understand that they are awesome people. Fair enough.

So anyway, without wishing i was someone else (although putting my name as Bjork when bowling yesterday obviously gave me the abilty to come second even more than my actual skills) It occurred to me as i woke up that i don’t mean anything to anyone- not in a depressing way though, because i don’t feel wanted anymore means i have to improve my life…that IS what everyone does to make them feel better in this world. So all money and dat is a way to make you feel better. Nearly. Some people don’t need money to make them happy- it just helps, which brings me to my recent analysis of London.

You could, could ask someone in London if they knew the area and expect them to, but then you shouldn’t really because you’d look like a tourist/someone who doesn’t live there and that would destroy your ‘street cred’. Clearly. 

I went into EAT with my friends which is an awesome place to EAT cause its just modern and simple but most people who go there are business people with telegraphs usually. Except i go, and feel like a twat cause i’m not rich, it’s expensive but you just want it. ( London’s a really nice place to go to, but so is like..Bristol..) So as i queue up with a builder to get a drink, i kinda think London is really a big laughing act with the queen and big ben and good museums.

Oh thou, who givest sustenance to the universe 
From whom all things proceed 
To whom all things return 
Unveil to us the face of the true spiritual sun 
Hidden by a disc of golden light 
That we may know the truth 
And do our whole duty 
As we journey to thy sacred feet

Well I said 
Lily, Oh Lily I don’t feel safe 
I feel that life has blown a great big hole 
Through me

And she said 
Child, you must protect yourself 
I’ll show you how with fire

Gabriel before me 
Raphael behind me 
Michael to my right 
Uriel on my left side 
In the circle of fire                       - Kate Bush, Lily.